I asked women in my new facebook support group to tell me about one thing (or more) positive about recovery or working toward recovery, which they did not expect. Some responses are shared below…
Lindsay: a sense of freedom and ease and ability to go with the flow that I had been missing since I was a teenager and that I never thought would come back.
Oh, another one: when my husband says, “Doesn’t a burger sound good tonight?” not having to make things difficult and try to convince him to go somewhere healthy and insist that I don’t really like burgers … and just get to enjoy the freaking burger together! With a side of fries!
One more, because there are so many: when I first get home after being on a long flight, not having to go on a run before I even unpack my bags and instead just collapsing on the couch and ordering takeout.
Florence: Less anxiety, babies, ice cream, support from all of my fellow HA ladies into motherhood, boobs and poops, not waking up hungry at night, my hair growing back, feeling like a normally functioning woman, saving my bones, sleeping better, spending more time with my family and friends, holidays without a single workout, not going round with my tupperwares, eating socially, finally using my time for something i love & aiming to save the world, discovering a more fun, more balanced person inside of me.
Nicole: Not having to worry about when to eat, what to eat, and listening my body tell me what it wants. My eating used to revolve around an IBS and paleo diet as well as my workout schedule – no more of that taking up space in my head.
Oh, and my laughter is so much deeper now. Happiness feels amazing, like its own high.
Louisa: Realised that restricting myself and stressing around food/exercise was 100% the reasons behind my gut issues. Since eating everything I’ve actually been pretty ok!
Also, Sleeping in, not having to schedule my week around my workouts, desserts, a pretty much healed digestive system, freedom around food, just food in general, boobs, oh and you ladies!
Also as I’m not yet recovered just knowing there’s more that will improve is all the motivation I need to keep going 💪🏻 x
Sarah: Crying. Like full body weeping. You know that saying, “have a good cry?” I haven’t been able to do this for months and it’s felt strange. In the past week (just went all in), I’ve wept and I feel I’ve been cracked open in a healthy way.
Mary: Resurrection of my libido!
Corey: Realizing how high strung I was, and how my anger was on a hair trigger!! I was ALWAYS planning out the food I was going to eat, or rehashing the food I had just eaten. I still focus on food a lot, but now it’s looking forward to all the great stuff I get to eat, and enjoying it! I also didn’t expect all of the stories and personal growth shared in NPNW to apply to me as closely as it did…man, did I try to fight it! “But that’s not ME…. I’M not like that….” 😐
Liz: I no longer feel out of control around food. I don’t feel disgusting anymore for feeding my body what it needs or weighing what it wants to (for the most part, there are some bad days). I had a list of “bad” foods I thought were poison to me (because if I had ever binged on them they went on this list of supposed poison trigger foods) much longer than the list of foods that I deemed pure and wouldn’t cause binging (protein veggies select oils). I had to go to the gym every day sort of like paying for an ok day. If I didn’t get to it for some reason I felt like it was an automatic terrible day. I’m definitely not in the best place but so much better and I’m so grateful. I usually am grateful to nourish my body. I try to eat mostly foods that I believe are nutritious for my body and feel grateful for that. If I am hungry or crave something I don’t usually think it’s an urge to binge but maybe that… I’m hungry and my body is telling me. I no longer eat salad for every single meal… I no longer feel like many of the foods I thought were poison are (some I do still struggle with… it takes time and is a journey to completely free myself and don’t know if I’ll ever get there… but the list is def a lot smaller)… I can eat all u can eat sushi sometimes usually no guilt. Chocolate sometimes ❤️… I’m happy to enjoy a treat once in a while and see now that I can have one or two when I want and not have a compulsion to stay up and binge on 20 like I feared)… I can walk some mornings (hope to get back to running sometime bc I enjoy it) and others rest if I don’t feel like it… and it’s not the end of the world and I can function and have an ok day without exercise. So there are a lot. I have a way to go and there are def some weird thoughts about food still but I’m in a much better place and someday if I’m a mom I feel I’ll pass on much better attitudes that I would have.
Oh another very random that i was thinking of recently during a discussion with someone… i used to have major bladder issues for most of the time i had HA. I thought i might have interstitial cystitis as I frequently had infections, and even when I didn’t i often felt burning and sharp pain sensations… very strange another thing no one could quite figure out 🙁 It mysteriously went away around when I recovered from HA. I have never had any pain or a bladder infection since. I can’t help but wonder if it was related to my super low estrogen levels…
Erika: Bladder issues is a symptom of low estrogen. 😊 I had them, too. Mine was more frequency (now if I go in the middle of the night it’s 1X where used to be as much as 4Xs). Also if I had to go, I had to go. Extreme urgency. Some of mine could have also been kidney function just from low body weight, too.
This is just a sampling of the comments. Are you ready to dive into YOUR recovery and discover how your life will change?