I have just finished Part 2 of the book and I am still really enjoying reading. It struck home for me and I found going through some of it quite emotional (and I don’t think that’s just pregnancy hormones!). I could identify with so much and also realized how hard I will have to work to stop heading back in to HA land after I have the baby – I don’t think I have completely recovered really and the book certainly brought that out for me. Anyway, short summary – thumbs up!!
I just wanted to update you on an unexpected benefit to stopping my calorie counting. Almost two months now and I haven’t kept track of calories for one day. I’m still feeling good, and loving new, healthy foods. What I didn’t expect? My relationships with people are SO much better and growing deeper all around. In hindsight, why? Because I now have the mental energy to CARE deeply about others rather than just counting calories! It amazes me, and I am so thankful to God for giving me you ladies and for giving me a kick in the butt. My only regret is that I didn’t do this sooner!
Today was the first day in 17 years that I actually did not do any kind of workout and I was fine. NO crawling up the walls or out of my skin. NO bad moods. In fact after work I spent a few hours with my parents just talking. My mom was in tears because she has her daughter back. I feel clear and strong. For those of you that feel like you have to work out everyday or else you will hate yourself like I did most of my life, just let go. You deserve to feel good about yourself. No one can take that away from you. What I find works for me is I take everyday as it comes. No tomorrow and no yesterday. JUST the present. Live in the moment. It took me a full year to really work on this, but I am so close to having my dreams come true. I realize if you want something bad enough, you’re willing to work on those things that are in your way.
In chapter 11 in No Period. Now What? we suggest using affirmations–encouraging statements that help keep you focused on your goal–to help you get through tough times as you work to recover from hypothalamic amenorrhea. Here are a few more that didn’t make it in to the chapter.
- The moment you’re ready to quit is usually the moment right before the miracle happens. Don’t give up.
- My body is a five star baby hotel!
- The journey is hard, the recovery is worth it, be gentle on yourself.
- I am not defined by the number on the scale.
- I have a different body now, but different is OK, even healthy!
- I am grateful for ________ today.
- No one is in charge of my happiness except for me.
- Time heals almost everything…..I will give this time.
- No matter what my appearance may be, I am going to press forward in faith towards a hopeful future and not relive my past!
- My happiness is not contingent upon circumstance.
Write any (or all) of the affirmations that speak to you on little pieces of paper, and put them in random spots. They can provide a little pick-me-up throughout your day. Or if you find yourself struggling with how you look, not being able to exercise as you feel you ‘should’, or eating out of your comfort zone, use these to remind yourself of your purpose and desires. Tape them to your mirror, fridge, running shoes – whatever it takes to remind yourself that what you are doing is helping you to recover and kick some hypothalamic amenorrhea butt.
You’ve got this!